19th of 4th mo., 1843

completes my 42nd year. I took up 50 apple trees for Ransford A. Willis in the P.M. choped and let Brother Ira have some potatoes for turnips.

This year has closed the longest & coldest winter that has been known in this country. A deep gloom has covered my mind for more than two months. The suffering of my stock for the want of feed the latter part of winter and spring has to me been very trying. The love of life in my feelings has this latter part of my 42nd year much abated to what it ever was before.

After the winter had passed by I began to have feelings of keen embarassments on the account of having endorsed so much for Samuel & Ebenesar Stuart. I have serious fears resting on my own mind

on the account of my liability. Still I endeavor to trust in the Lord who has never forsaken me though.

19th of 4th mo., 1844 tells 43 years of my pilgrimage, the latter part of which has been attended with much anxiety as to my liabilities with E. Stuart.

I have been at hard work all day setting fense posts on the west side of my house. I have been much entertained of late in reading the life of Daniel Wheeler. Oh that my life might immitate the walk of such Artisans as he was.

19th of 4th mo., 1845. Ends my 44 year. I was employed through the day in fixing the fense round the clover piece east of the old house. The boys all worked with me. This was a day of some dispondency